Ms Tan passed away on wednesday morning. She was my sec 1 & 2 maths teacher. I remembered how horrible my class was towards her. not paying attention in her lessons, makin' fun of her, and not doing her tonnes of homework. I feel bad and guilty for being part of it. However, what i remembered most is that she's a very dedicated and ultimately caring teacher. i like and respect her alot. I think alot of us felt alot when we first hear the news that she's gone. me too. i didn't visit her when she was down with cancer. and she really changed so much physically due to that illness that she looked so different from that strong, clear image of her in my memory. i didn't know how i should react. i attended her wake last night, some of them cried. but i didn't shed a single tear although i'm sad. when we went to see her for the last time, there's a soft toy placed beside her with the message 'I love you'. it's the last message she has given us. I've been really down lately, and somehow last night that 3 words made me feel that i'm not alone. i'm still struggling within myself, confused by the absolutely messed up directions ahead of me. but no matter what i'll become, I will not forget Ms Tan, my most respected teacher. I'll miss her...