Sunday, November 13, 2005
i feel like i'm suffocating. this november sucks seriously. i'm almost totally drained out. i'm left with just that little bit of mental power. i'm having problems with my class. sucks huh? nvr expected on day 1 that things will turn out like that. maybe it's personality clash, like some said to me. i don't kno what to do anymore. why am i struggling? i tried to change but nothing was worth it. nothing's real anymore. and they don't know how i was like in tha past, that's alrite. damn sick and tired of tha situation.. i really feel that i'm better being alone like how i used to be in long great history, i said that a billion times but somehow i nvr gave up. however it makes me even more exhausted. i hate all these people problems u know? i'm being more and more paranoid and pessimistic each day. my environment's pushin me down this damn pit again i once tried so hard to crawl out off.. i'm confused, somebody tell me what to do, tell me something that at least makes some sense to me. i thought i've learnt alot in tha past that nothing worse will happen again. i thought everything was easy. but now everything's falling apart again. who would have thought that this guy typing now is going thru all these shit? is there anybody out there who honestly understands me? i'll be happy just to see only one name on tha list. i've not been happy these days. it makes me wonder when was i ever happy. i'm not happy when i'm at home, i'm not happy when i'm in class. hey this sucks! writing all these bullshits here really made me less frustrated... but when this screen turns black, everything will be tha same again. are all 17s like that? or i'm indeed an odd breed from another planet. i am the only species on my own against the whole human race. this is crap shit. and i'm sick and tired of it.
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Posted at 11/13/2005 12:43:21 pm by f_ckingGr8
